Fri… Sat…. Sun... At tyms, rash, angry words, spoken out of reason,
Its Nur Al’zarina 7th bdae ...
After work went to her place.
She kept on calling asking whr i was, wat tym will i reached.
Alamak dehhh so kanchiong...
Met her n Mummy Epol at Sun plaza, shopped for groceries for her party tomorrow She was relly cute with her new look; the upper teeth BOGEH already... lol
laugh at her n kena jeling... =)
Slept at 4am, helped to to cut all the stuff. Bdae party mcm org kawin kena rewang. hehe
Everyone came she was relly happy with all her presents not forgetting her clan Alya n Danish.
Gado, Baik, Gado, Baik…
Pening aku bdk2 nie…
The rest of us more gerek cant stop laughing snap pix here n thr...
It was fun…Time to get home. Tired. Not enuff rest.
Oppps... forget. Happy 26th bdae Fir’ Ashirin… Happy2 Alwaysss...
Down with cold n bad headache.
But still manage to clean up all the messed in my room.
Throw my couch n all the clothes tat cant fit in me anymore.. almaklom i kan makin cute..
Supposed to watched bro performed but am sorry cant attend; relly feel sick.
Sorry Nor cant accompanied you. Hope Fai’s there.
Bro, I will support you the very nxt tym..
My heart relly sank when I kept on thinking didnt get to watched bro n wat had happened!
Didn’t meant for it, But I guess I cant take it. Anger overcome me..
Just Blurt it out n tiz wat will happens! Pfft!
Terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata…. Haiz.
I still believe blood is thicker than water n I love you guyz no matter wat..
Have ruin'd many. Passion is unjust,
With long repentence at a later day
Later ; Sunday, March 29, 2009 ; (0) Comment-O!
So lagged at work today.
Have to finish my report for all vessels but so lazy liao.
Do it slow n steady.
With Capt. Mood today we all feel fucking lazy.
Likes to vent anger on someone else relly damn stupid sia..
When he cools down he tends to forget everything. Isn’t he senile?? He’s not even 60 yet...;))
Surfing nets till don’t noe what to surf. Drink coffee. Talk cock with Jun n Sandra.
2 more hours feel lyk HELL... feels lyk wanna go home now.
Can the clock tick fast today!!
But after all still happy coz LIVERPOOL won 5-1 to Aston... muacksss...
Later ; Monday, March 23, 2009 ; (0) Comment-O!
L0ng tym huh nvr write..
Been bz with my new w0rk, new great colleague,
after w0rk g0 h0me...
wkend spending tym doing hse chores, sleeping..
Ibu always said tats why i dont hv any b0ifren all i d0 is stay at h0me. seld0m g0es out.
its 0k Ibu insya allah satu hari ader seorang hamba allah yg akan suka, cinta & syg akan diriku ini. amin... ;)
Came back from KL last wk. Been tired of that place. Ayah, can we go elsewhr the very nxt tym...??
l00king f0rward to Bangk0k. weeeeeeeeeee
It was qilah bdae ystrday.. not f0rgetting my baby bdae (FT) it was Friday.
you'll nvr walk alone ok... muhahahahaha.
Bujel been forced by me to celebrate qilah bdae.. hehe
last minute invitation. nawa cant make it. will catch up with you on yai's bdae..
2 tray of my brownies finished. wahhh finger licking delicious is it...?? kekekeke
It was relly fun meeting up with all families.
ada yg sakit sampai tkder suara (eeda). ingus melilih (nor). penyakit krg bawak kat bdae party.... hehe 
Raifan, so cute my lil nephew he turned 1yr on 10/01/2009.
Instead of calling Danish, Uncle he called him KAKAK. "Kakak, Kakak..." relly cute..
All of us cant stop laughing. Jija n Apai teased Danish till he cried.
Reach home nearly 1am...
Trus lepak..
...end....
Later ; Sunday, March 22, 2009 ; (0) Comment-O!
Alhamdulillah. Its been raining for 3days already & also nearly a week tat i hvnt talk with ayah. I will wait for him to coax me. I dont care... hahahahaha.... Im the only daughter so i have to get all the attention. Childish rite?? Serve him rite 4 pampering me all this 26 yrs...Enuff of that...Back to my story on Tuesday...Noting much, went to library with Fira as both of us bored at home..It was drizzling before i went out. However i still manage to be on time.Browsing thru the books while waiting for her to turn up...As usual da jmpa msti mepek pnya. kat library pon mcm kat umah ketawa2. dengzz btol.Nk mkn CARAMEL BROWNIES tapi suro aku buat. Insya allah aku rajin2 kan diriku ini. Craving for ayam penyet but she nvr eat rice. Pity her we went to IMM end up eating banquet..Had our dessert, ice cream. Masya allah cik kak ice cream caramel kau pnya manis kedahang, boleh potong kaki siak. She also doesnt like mine. She nvr ate balckforest liao. But mine is just nice. lol..Walk back to library waiting for togok to fetch as Pinholes looking for a place to photoshoot. But thr's only Fahmy n Asri/Azri kurang pasti. Will be continue searching for their photoshoot tiz sat if not mistaken...Gosh, both of them really cekik darah. Laugh at me the moment they told me that tiz particular band will be performing tiz sat at esplanade. Had supper n send them back home. Before Asri went off sempat lagi cakap " Termenung pe teringatkan saturday!" Kuwang asam btol. Ketawakan org. Tkder kene mengena langsung aku dgn band tut!! pandai2 jer eh... biaser eh..;))to be continued..... will forget all the unhappinessmoved onhv confidence in urself.
Later ; Wednesday, February 25, 2009 ; (0) Comment-O!
Its meant to be a happy family outing but it turns out to be a disaster when its time to get home.
Getting on my nerve each fucking day. If i dont argue with ibu, i will argue with apai. Today ayah turn.. Its really HELLL..
Am i too sensitive?? Pampered bastard??
Sitting at home for nearly 4 months getting me so depressed, no work for me till i always vent my anger. Subhanallah. I dont mean it ok. Really sorry. Please lah i already had enuff. Cant you all please close 1 eyes n give in too me... Too many things had happened. Dont you guys pity me. Im not asking for anyhing. You're my closest kin. All i need is your kind understandingNESS. Feel like fixing an appt to see a psychiatrist. Can be insane if this keep going on.. Show me some mercy pls..Last but not least i love my family. i love my ibu. i love my ayah. i love my ajil. i love my apai. i love my grandparents. i love my aunt n uncle. i love my cuzzins. i love my frenzz. those who tinks that dont want to befrend me can FUCK OFFF!!! dont need you guys. FUCKING IDIOT!!!
Later ; Friday, February 20, 2009 ; (0) Comment-O!
Thought this would get betterBut it only seems to worsen as the days passMy happiness has deceased,I knew it wouldn't lastThe anger has built up inside,I'm ready to break looseI won't be able to take much more of this abuseMy body's twitching, mind gone blankI'm outraged by all the pain that I've gone throughI've put up afront with nowhere to run toEyes as red as blood, mascara down my faceI'm gone, discharged from this placeMy brain has decomposed from all this messSome people just weren't meant to be happy I guessI wish I knew the answers I wish I knew how to fix itI wonder what's wrongday in and day outwhat do I need to do different?How do I need to act? Should I be someone else?Or should I just give up?but that's not my nature I'm a fighternot a snail that crawls into my shellHow come I want to hide?How come I want to run?I want to get away,far away from herewhere no one knows meand no one will judge meIs there such a place?I don't think there isbut one can always hope hope for the better & not for the worst..
Later ; Tuesday, February 17, 2009 ; (0) Comment-O!
Last Friday. Had a great outing with my cuzzins. But someh0w i felt that i missed sumthing but i, myself n0t sure watz tat.. im trying hard to catch up with some ppl but i guessed they dont seem to care... why do ppl change not for the better but for the worse, they came to me only when they feel lonely, arguing, problems with bf, frenz, family member but when they are in a very good terms, im being ignored & start giving excuses n stupid reasons. I just felt that Allah is GREAT coz wat ppl do behind my back i will kn0w it.Thru their expression, body language we will surely know...Im n0t a kid that you can conned me!! My grandma always remind me "Biar 0Rang buat kita, kita jgn buat 0rang"..Maybe she know wat im goin thru and she always notice that... Ape yg berlaku ada hikmahnya.Allah akan sentiasa bersama org2 yg dlm kesusahan & dianiaya..Redha atas ketentuanya..Amin
Later ; Monday, January 19, 2009 ; (0) Comment-O!