Happiness

2009-03-29T19:36:00.005+08:00

Fri…
Its Nur Al’zarina 7th bdae ...
After work went to her place.
She kept on calling asking whr i was, wat tym will i reached.
Alamak dehhh so kanchiong...
Met her n Mummy Epol at Sun plaza, shopped for groceries for her party tomorrow She was relly cute with her new look; the upper teeth BOGEH already... lol
laugh at her n kena jeling... =)
Slept at 4am, helped to to cut all the stuff. Bdae party mcm org kawin kena rewang. hehe

Sat….
Everyone came she was relly happy with all her presents not forgetting her clan Alya n Danish.
Gado, Baik, Gado, Baik…
Pening aku bdk2 nie…
The rest of us more gerek cant stop laughing snap pix here n thr...
It was fun…Time to get home. Tired. Not enuff rest.
Oppps... forget. Happy 26th bdae Fir’ Ashirin… Happy2 Alwaysss...

Sun...
Down with cold n bad headache.
But still manage to clean up all the messed in my room.
Throw my couch n all the clothes tat cant fit in me anymore.. almaklom i kan makin cute..
Supposed to watched bro performed but am sorry cant attend; relly feel sick.
Sorry Nor cant accompanied you. Hope Fai’s there.
Bro, I will support you the very nxt tym..
My heart relly sank when I kept on thinking didnt get to watched bro n wat had happened!
Didn’t meant for it, But I guess I cant take it. Anger overcome me..
Just Blurt it out n tiz wat will happens! Pfft!
Terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata…. Haiz.
I still believe blood is thicker than water n I love you guyz no matter wat..

At tyms, rash, angry words, spoken out of reason,
Have ruin'd many. Passion is unjust,
With long repentence at a later day

MOnday Blues.....

2009-03-23T16:10:00.001+08:00

So lagged at work today.
Have to finish my report for all vessels but so lazy liao.
Do it slow n steady.
With Capt. Mood today we all feel fucking lazy.
Likes to vent anger on someone else relly damn stupid sia..
When he cools down he tends to forget everything. Isn’t he senile?? He’s not even 60 yet...;))
Surfing nets till don’t noe what to surf. Drink coffee. Talk cock with Jun n Sandra.
2 more hours feel lyk HELL... feels lyk wanna go home now.
Can the clock tick fast today!!
But after all still happy coz LIVERPOOL won 5-1 to Aston... muacksss...

Qilot bdae...

2009-03-22T20:17:00.004+08:00

L0ng tym huh nvr write..
Been bz with my new w0rk, new great colleague,
after w0rk g0 h0me...
wkend spending tym doing hse chores, sleeping..
Ibu always said tats why i dont hv any b0ifren all i d0 is stay at h0me. seld0m g0es out.
its 0k Ibu insya allah satu hari ader seorang hamba allah yg akan suka, cinta & syg akan diriku ini. amin... ;)
Came back from KL last wk. Been tired of that place. Ayah, can we go elsewhr the very nxt tym...??
l00king f0rward to Bangk0k. weeeeeeeeeee
It was qilah bdae ystrday.. not f0rgetting my baby bdae (FT) it was Friday.
you'll nvr walk alone ok... muhahahahaha.
Bujel been forced by me to celebrate qilah bdae.. hehe
last minute invitation. nawa cant make it. will catch up with you on yai's bdae..
2 tray of my brownies finished. wahhh finger licking delicious is it...?? kekekeke
It was relly fun meeting up with all families.
ada yg sakit sampai tkder suara (eeda). ingus melilih (nor). penyakit krg bawak kat bdae party.... hehe

Raifan, so cute my lil nephew he turned 1yr on 10/01/2009.
Instead of calling Danish, Uncle he called him KAKAK. "Kakak, Kakak..." relly cute..
All of us cant stop laughing. Jija n Apai teased Danish till he cried.
Reach home nearly 1am...
Trus lepak..
...end....

2009-02-25T23:13:00.004+08:00

Alhamdulillah. Its been raining for 3days already & also nearly a week tat i hvnt talk with ayah.

I will wait for him to coax me. I dont care... hahahahaha.... Im the only daughter so i have to get all the attention. Childish rite?? Serve him rite 4 pampering me all this 26 yrs...

Enuff of that...

Back to my story on Tuesday...

Noting much, went to library with Fira as both of us bored at home..

It was drizzling before i went out. However i still manage to be on time.

Browsing thru the books while waiting for her to turn up...

As usual da jmpa msti mepek pnya. kat library pon mcm kat umah ketawa2. dengzz btol.

Nk mkn CARAMEL BROWNIES tapi suro aku buat.

Insya allah aku rajin2 kan diriku ini.

Craving for ayam penyet but she nvr eat rice. Pity her we went to IMM end up eating banquet..

Had our dessert, ice cream. Masya allah cik kak ice cream caramel kau pnya manis kedahang, boleh potong kaki siak. She also doesnt like mine. She nvr ate balckforest liao.

But mine is just nice. lol..

Walk back to library waiting for togok to fetch as Pinholes looking for a place to photoshoot. But thr's only Fahmy n Asri/Azri kurang pasti.

Will be continue searching for their photoshoot tiz sat if not mistaken...

Gosh, both of them really cekik darah. Laugh at me the moment they told me that tiz particular band will be performing tiz sat at esplanade. Had supper n send them back home.

Before Asri went off sempat lagi cakap " Termenung pe teringatkan saturday!"

Kuwang asam btol. Ketawakan org. Tkder kene mengena langsung aku dgn band tut!!

pandai2 jer eh... biaser eh..

;))

to be continued.....

will forget all the unhappiness

moved on

hv confidence in urself.

2009-02-20T23:24:00.002+08:00

Its meant to be a happy family outing but it turns out to be a disaster when its time to get home.
Getting on my nerve each fucking day. If i dont argue with ibu, i will argue with apai. Today ayah turn.. Its really HELLL..
Am i too sensitive?? Pampered bastard??
Sitting at home for nearly 4 months getting me so depressed, no work for me till i always vent my anger. Subhanallah. I dont mean it ok. Really sorry. Please lah i already had enuff. Cant you all please close 1 eyes n give in too me... Too many things had happened. Dont you guys pity me. Im not asking for anyhing. You're my closest kin. All i need is your kind understandingNESS. Feel like fixing an appt to see a psychiatrist. Can be insane if this keep going on.. Show me some mercy pls..Last but not least i love my family. i love my ibu. i love my ayah. i love my ajil. i love my apai. i love my grandparents. i love my aunt n uncle. i love my cuzzins. i love my frenzz. those who tinks that dont want to befrend me can FUCK OFFF!!! dont need you guys. FUCKING IDIOT!!!

2009-02-17T00:20:00.002+08:00

Thought this would get better

But it only seems to worsen as the days pass

My happiness has deceased,I knew it wouldn't last

The anger has built up inside,I'm ready to break loose

I won't be able to take much more of this abuse

My body's twitching, mind gone blank

I'm outraged by all the pain that I've gone through

I've put up afront with nowhere to run to

Eyes as red as blood, mascara down my face

I'm gone, discharged from this place

My brain has decomposed from all this mess

Some people just weren't meant to be happy I guess

I wish I knew the answers

I wish I knew how to fix it

I wonder what's wrongday in and day out

what do I need to do different?

How do I need to act? Should I be someone else?Or should I just give up?

but that's not my nature

I'm a fighternot a snail that crawls into my shell

How come I want to hide?How come I want to run?

I want to get away,far away from herewhere no one knows meand no one will judge me

Is there such a place?

I don't think there isbut one can always hope

hope for the better & not for the worst..

Everything Changed

2009-01-19T12:36:00.002+08:00

Last Friday. Had a great outing with my cuzzins. But someh0w i felt that i missed sumthing but i, myself n0t sure watz tat..

im trying hard to catch up with some ppl but i guessed they dont seem to care...

why do ppl change not for the better but for the worse,

they came to me only when they feel lonely, arguing, problems with bf, frenz, family member but when they are in a very good terms, im being ignored & start giving excuses n stupid reasons.

I just felt that Allah is GREAT coz wat ppl do behind my back i will kn0w it.

Thru their expression, body language we will surely know...

Im n0t a kid that you can conned me!!

My grandma always remind me

"Biar 0Rang buat kita, kita jgn buat 0rang"..

Maybe she know wat im goin thru and she always notice that...

Ape yg berlaku ada hikmahnya.

Allah akan sentiasa bersama org2 yg dlm kesusahan & dianiaya..

Redha atas ketentuanya..

Amin

2009-01-14T14:13:00.002+08:00

Its been a very long time since i updated my blog....

2 wks already passed in January, buzy sending my resume but still no news from either one..

so sad.. RECCESSIIOOONNN!!!!!!!!!!!

So many had happened in the year of 2008..

May this Muharram will bring me good fortune huh....

Just hope that tiz year will be a good n better one... insya allah

Hoping to find a good job, good bf??.... muahahahahhaha

FITNAH

2008-12-09T01:23:00.003+08:00

Hey!! I dont need & dont wish to be part of your so called CLAN.
who is bad mouthing who rite now??
i dont say nor breathe a word bout you *&%$##& guys..
its you who have been bad mouthing me & judge me wrongly...
You all wish to listen to only one side of the story, but its ok...
ALLAH S.W.T noes the best...
Definitely one fine day he will reveal and open the heart of all muslims that lyk to FITNAH others...
Subhanallah... Masya Allah...

I will always believe in KARMA... amin ya rabbal alamin

2008-11-11T00:39:00.002+08:00

On the 8th of nov, it was Jija bdae...
Happy bdae bro...
May you'll always succeed in everything you do/
He celebrate with his gf n his assholes... oppps pinholes. lol.
We want to celebrate his bdae but he said that he wants to go out with his gf, bla bla bla...
So please dont blame us for not celebrating it with you.
And please dont ever say we forget your bdae coz you seems to be happy with 'them'....
Even ayah took the day off but its ok he can rest more at home...

In life thou you've found new frenz.

Pls dont forget the ones whom you've been frenz for years.

No matter how sickening they are...

treasure the friendship..

2008-11-09T15:42:00.002+08:00

Dont have to talk behind our backs. Whom you are referring to n watever it is please bear in mind that no one's perfect. People always say the more the merrier but if you tend that we are the imposter or wat just tell straight to the face. Its ok lah we are not tat hard up.
Is it because of jealousy?
Why do girls always reacted this way??
Or am i the sensitive one??

2008-11-02T00:50:00.002+08:00

Hoping that Togok can fetch early, as i want to go to Pasir ris, bride side...
Lucky we are in time. At last get to go....
The kompang was masya allah got that Barongan & its so scary...
Run away from it..
Back to groom side nearly 3, stuck at Bride side as it was raining heavily..
Meet all the relatives, talk, chit chat... bla bla bla
Most of all ada Hetty Sarlene, my uncle classmate in sec...
Satu satu cekik darah nk amek gambar merebut rebut. DONG!
Finish everything smua lepak at my place..
Watch wujud again. Pity Danish (Ganesh) 10x already watch but still scared..
Wujud ended. My aunts getting ready to go home but we still talk n talk.
Jija n Apai all kind of stupid jokes terkeluar, smua ketawa mcm tk ingat dunia..
So much fun lah deh...
;)

I just love when all of us get together..

We Laugh, We Joke..

Its Only That We Dont Have Quality Tym For Our Family...

Most Are Busy..

Busy As Bee..

Nikah

2008-11-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

Da sampai seru seh uncle shahrul ku, ke jinjang pelamin akhirnya. ALHAMDULILLAH.
I wanna follow to the bride side for nikah but my aunt told me afraid that there's no space. Haiyaaa.... if like that i no need to come so early lah. After magreb come ahhhh. Then they try to call me up telling me that there's space, last minute.. mcm siek... kesian seh i. nk tgk org nikah tk dpt. ALMAKLOM. maner lah taokan kot kot berjangkit ker... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... EH JGN NK PERASAN LAH! GIE KAWIN DGN BATANG PISANG SUDA.... ;(
Isk percakapan satu doa, doalah yg terbaik. insya allah. amin...
Da melalut nmpk..
Epol & kids spend the nyte at my place.
If not tomorrow you're going to be late..
hehe..

2008-10-31T18:47:00.002+08:00

Each day pass by n im getting bored...
Sitting at home for nearly a month..
Do all chores, sending my grandpa for check up..
However Great, will commence work on nxt Tues....
Curious + all kind of feelings
Insya allah everything will goes well....

On Wednesday accompanied Nonie highlite her hair, her niece (Dayah) for rebonding at Teban...
Together with Hanie & Shidah...
As usual kalo da meet up mesti ader jer klakar BODOW...
Laugh all the way....
Speak of the DEVIL, Naz pon timbul. Aper lagi g ngendaplah Nonie tngh uat rambut... LOL
Finished. We went BaraKAt for dinner, had Mee Goreng but feel nausea after eating...
Lepak reservoir jap, chat for a while n make a trip home...
Planning to club but so sorry guys not well...
Hanie jgn bingit k...
There will always be a nxt tym...

On Thursday itself will be the last episod for KEKASIHKU SERU...
Best show indeed...
Watch WUJUD cant get to sleep...
Kuwang ajiak pnya Apai tinggalkan aku tdo umah Togok...
tkper ader pegi ader balik....

Friday tat is todae...
Send Rashid for chemo..
Lucky me it last long for only 30mins..
Nasib tk mendak nk tunggu berejam...

Thou it cant be cured..

We just try our best to make it better for you..

As long as you put on a smile

We'll be happy...

;)

2008-10-27T01:17:00.003+08:00

Cant wake up in the morning.... sooooooooooo sleepy

As usual merayap till morning...

Celebrated Yan bdae ystrday at his grandma place...

Lala was damn cute when she blows the candle like it was her bdae...

At noon watch goodanx soccer match..

GOODANX LOSE watefishhhhh ;(((((

Went Vivo celebrate Mal bdae at Swensen

We just ate ice cream n cake...

Hope she's happy with it...

Supper at Aliff, saw a few of my best buddies...

Really missed them, missed all the stupid fun we ever had together...

But now everything have to stopped, i have to let everything go...

Its sad thou....

Only god knew why & what had happen...

haizzz.....

2008-10-25T11:32:00.002+08:00

Watch HSM3 with cuzzies. (too bad NAWA not there). Had fun. Jokes n laugh.

The story was good but dont really like the ending....

Its sooooo touching, more to friendship & relationship of teenagers, im not a teenage, but i got carried away till each time i cried.. the part which are not supposed to cry also i cry..

(Natata dont laugh at me ah.....) hehehe

getting sensitive as each day passed by... lol.

HOHHOHOHAHAHAHAHA......

so much noise from NUR AZFAR...

in the end...

rasa in lorh, patah pagar lori togok

pucat muka kau kejap NUR AZFAR...

ketawakan org lagi

nie part kita ketawakan kau....

gerek eh NUR AZRIL dpt laughkan adik kita....

BRAVO BRAVO BRAVO......

2008-10-08T20:38:00.001+08:00

2008-10-08T18:38:00.002+08:00

2008-09-30T01:34:00.000+08:00

EvE Raya...

Early Mrng went t0 the Bank with Apai....

Fight with him dunt wanna went Pak Mus but he insist, g0 ajerlah dpt thread.. l0l

G0 straight t0 my grandma place help her f0r Raya t0morr0w...

At 9pm it rains heavily... non-stop

12+ went Geylang back at 5++

DamN Tired..

2008-09-29T09:55:00.011+08:00

Sat after work went JB with the ppl in the pix...
Biaserlah janji melayu...
janji kul 3 tgu pnya tgu sampai kul 5...
wateheck...

Sun....

Spring cleaning my house, tired...

but still can go Safra watch gdnx play soccer...

Kena marah dgn HANIE & DAYAH...

gie JB tk ajak...

MANI ah taik tktao ajak aku plak kena...

da SEWEL gaknyer...

As usual have fun, laugh n laugh to the max...

cant meet that two gerls conperm karem ader klakar bodo...

Hanie rabak makan epok epok tknk pelawa org...

taik idOng masin..

teeeeeheeeeeeeee...

2008-09-26T09:27:00.002+08:00

MC for 2days & wanted to xtend my mc but that fucking lady doc said i dont need that coz im ok.

Wat a big fucker!! Not to worried she'll get her retribution 1 day... & i'll suspect that this idiot from my workplace called up this clinic n told the doc not to gave me any mc....

Who the HELL she tink she is...

I dont mind being kicked out from this job as long as i get my pay for this month. Thats all...

Getting totally PISSED off...

Im totally down at this period of time....

Supaya Allah S.w.T memberikan ketenanagan dlm hidupku...

Amin

2008-09-22T14:19:00.002+08:00

Saturday.....

At Safra Tampines....
GoodaNx Football MAtch...
The gerls bz taking pix of themselves....
Chit chatting, laughing....
It was fun thou'...

2008-09-20T02:02:00.000+08:00

fRidAy

After work, break my fast with the girls (Muna, MAl, Mai, Hanie & Shida) at Geylang.

Reached there at 7pm with Hanie while the rest already ordered their food.

While waiting for Mai n Muna solat, we sat n chat...

its 10pm.....

No idea whr to walk, we sat at pasar geylang after that proceed to lorry...

went home send muna, mai....

kecian hanieku, B you da alik tk wait for you....

rindu ehk....

hehehhe

weeeeeeeeeeeeee

2008-09-18T10:14:00.003+08:00

As usual bored at work lahhhhhh...

After work went VIVO only the 3 of us Apai, Gok & me.

get 1 shirt from GOK. thnx ya.

Zai never follow buzy with his ART work...

Mal call she wanna join us at VIVO together with APIT.

hehehehhehe....

Pity APAI never get any shirt.

itulah cerewet sgt. bodo....

go west coast eat. send apit n apai to garden.

we go back home.

still need to the laundry. iron clothes.

tiring you noe...

sleep at 1am.....

haaaaaaaiiiiizzzzzzzzzzz

Watever happens or had happened.

Its from Allah.

Just believe in destiny.

;)

Mon Blues

2008-09-16T14:31:00.002+08:00

cOme tO wOrk late.

cannOt wake up ah deh...

lucky me for having such a gOOd bOss.

never even Once cOmplain..

lOvE Ya

MR WILLIAM FARLEY SEERY

hehe....

at wOrk as usual.

msn mOre than wOrk.

nurul.nurul.

so bad.

evening go to Queensway with MAL & fam.

need to alter my pants n skirt.

tOO lOng 4 me.

am i tOO shOrt..

watEvEr...

its gOd creatiOn.

ALHAMDULILLAH FOR EVERYTHING

eh UL da melalut eh

nielah kalO tmpt keje tkder benda nk buat.

muhahahahaha

sleep at 1am.

layan MAL, ZAI & APAI..

kecOzzz

weekEnd

2008-09-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

Saturday

sad.. happily wanna bake my pineapple tart den suddenly

haiiyaaa the oven buat hal power trip, CELAKER btol...

have to buy new one...

dugaan bulan puasa nie...

but at least was happy LIVERPOOL won...

weeeeeeeeeeeeee

as usual went geylang but that 'sumone' not there.. lol

dah lah nurul jgn shiok sendirik...

my stupid bro tell him that come take cab my sis will pay of cozlah he dont want...

stupid sia...

went to mustafa centre

changi as usual

sahur den go back....

Sunday

nOt enuff sleep.

went geylang with my family except JIJA werk eh carik duit byk (mcm phm)....

so tired. not in a gd mood. lol.

walk around . the guys went to buy baju kurung.

reached home arnd 4pm. lepak trus.

muahahahahaha.

buruk pnya pompuan...

;((

2008-09-12T09:51:00.002+08:00

A very wise decision that i make

For sure we cant be together...

All i want now is sumone who can accept me for what i am &

willing to change for the BETTER

not for the WORST....

Its true enuff as a fren we shared a lot...

Feelings do developed but its dangerous...

We are different in many parts of our life..

Esp our RELIGION....

Far apart dear....

Im sorry for everything....

Good Friend we stay forever....

;(

lOVesss

2008-09-10T12:40:00.002+08:00

Love not one love not two

Love the one who loves u true,

Love not three love not four

Love the one who loves u more

Love not five love not six

Love the one who really sticks

Love not seven love not eight

Love the one who really waits

boooreeed

2008-09-08T23:00:00.002+08:00

Monday never go werk. l0l..

Actually ready for werk but searching for my wallet can't find it so arrggghhhhh.....
sms my boss saying that not coming.....
hahahahah

Looking high n low for my wallet..
It was in the basket on the table.... stupid rite..
maner carik maner jer letak....

Noting to do, spring cleaning my room....
Check my emails , etc.....

Evening went to Mak Ina house get my clothes tailored for Hari Raya together with Tina & daughter, Ibu n MAl..

MAL oh MAL.....
buka dgn saper seh nasi ayam penyet....

heheehehehehhe

2008-09-07T10:02:00.001+08:00

First of all...
Happy Ramadhan to all muslim..

Well, this is my first blogging tym so where do i start....
Hmmm ......
Have a very fine nice weekdays at work thou it still bores me to death at tyms...
Lucky there's FiRa, MOOna, MaL, ApIT, SHiDaH & some other guys whose there to msn with me..
Thank Guys... lOl

On Sat, 6th September we went Geylang as usual with my lovely family; tOgOk, aPai, JIja, aDek, Mal, Eeda, Sopik, ShiRIN, HaNIE, NoNiE & GDG.....Reach Geylang at arnd 6++...Break their fast at lorry except for me.... my off week ;)After eating, waiting for Jija but he n some gdnx lose their way so i called him n said just wait at TKC...

Lucky for us as we stepped in at TKC, it rains heavily. So we just make a round down there...As soon as it stops, we moved from 1 bazaar to another bazaar.... Meet Bujel n Napi family. Pity Qilah, sorry dear... ;(

As usual lyk MAl said we were regular customer at Changi on every Sat. Wihout failed we went there juz to look at all BAPOKsss.... hahahaReached there we went toilet however when we went back to the lorry, 1 of the bapok already sat there. Mal was unhappy at 1st but as tym passed she's ok. She became the photographer with Hafiz new camera. lol.

They were all having fun there, taking pix, disturb the BAPOK....

Last trip to sembawang n had their 'SAHUR' at 1 of the mamak shop there...

Nonie was a real JOKER, we laughed n laughed just the thought that she fell down from lorry on her 1st outing with us... FUNNY...

The trip was quite fun thou it was tiring....

Aniwae APIT....

Mee goreng Mee Hor Fun
No Joke No Fun lahhh...

Peace No War...

;))